32WeeksEdit

Catching the Sunrise

32WeeksDetailEdit

At 35 weeks of pregnancy, I’ve gotten used to feeling the movements of the little guy growing inside me.

As early as 14 weeks, I felt little flutters and shifts, usually when I was laying on my side. Around 30 weeks, as he’s gotten bigger, his kicks and readjustments in the womb started to wake me from sleep. A few days in a row, around 32 weeks, his movements jerked me awake around 5 AM.

As many moms will say, or have said to me, in a condescending voice,

“Oh, get used to it! You’ll never sleep again!!”

I kind of enjoyed it, actually, after I got past the feeling startled bit. The early glow of the approaching sunrise was creeping in the window, and yes, it was my first introduction to being a mother being woken up by her child.

I am still mesmerized by all of the odd things happening to me and inside of me. I’m growing a human, and he’s going to be part of this world soon, but for now, all he knows is the warm darkness of my uterus. My husband and I can talk to him, touch him through my skin, sing to him, and he can only respond with what I call “touch-backs”. I hold him with one hand while I’m doing other things, and I can feel parts of him nestling into my palm. I don’t love being pregnant, but I love the feeling of a life other than mine sharing every moment with me.

I started a new sketchbook, not necessarily just about being pregnant, or being a mom, but hopefully about the whole experience of my life shifting in a new direction, and being inspired by this new little human. This drawing is the first in that sketchbook, and is drawn from a prenatal yoga pose. One hand is placed over the heart, and the other on the belly, while breathing deeply. Inevitably, my baby kicks and moves around every time I do this pose, and, as much as I try not to, it usually brings on some tears. It is surprisingly emotional.

32WeeksEdit

226 comments on “Catching the Sunrise

  1. I loved the times I was alone with my babies and could feel them lean into me, much as you do. With my youngest, I remember talking to him and he moved and I could recognize the feel of his hand. Touching the hand of my unborn son. It was a surreal moment.
    And what a wonderful expression that you are sharing your moments with a life other than yours. Beautiful post.

    Liked by 3 people

    • Thank you, it is so surreal, you are right! I felt my little guy’s foot last night. It’s funny, too, I feel like he moves around the most when we are alone. When I sing to him, too, he moves every time. I feel like we are very lucky to experience this at all. Thank you for taking time to read my post🙂

      Liked by 1 person

      • And thank you for taking the time to respond to my comment.😃 It’s funny what you say about singing to the baby. I did the same and now, as an adult,my son likes the music I like. Because of singing to him when I was pregnant? Or maybe he just has good taste lol.

        Liked by 3 people

  2. Alison, your painting was the first thing that drew me to your page, at first glance I thought it might be a map, then I considered it a map of a body and then, as I opened the page, the enormity of your emotion hit me. I loved reading your stages throughout your pregnancy and although it has been a while since I felt that myself, when I read someone else’s, I am plummeted back to my own experiences, as if they were yesterday. My only sadness as my children are growing up is that I will never feel that movement inside of me again, the flutters, the touches and the bond with my baby that no-one else has at that time. The bath time and sleeping (or rather attempts to sleep) when it is just you lying there feeling and communicating with that life you have created but are yet to meet. It brings a lump to my throat that this is a past experience, a memory and something to treasure like nothing before. Life teaches us to never take for granted the small things and it would be easy to get caught up in the routine appointments, blood tests, scans, backaches and swolen ankles among other ailments that pregnancy brings, but it is those simple, unique and unexpected moments in life that shoot us back down to earth as a little reminder to be grateful for what we have at this very moment. Thank you for sharing such an inspiring, sweet and touching part of your journey x

    Liked by 2 people

    • Thank you so much for your words. And as someone who is constantly looking toward the future, to a fault at some points, I think about how I will miss this time, and I try to embrace it now. As my sister-in-law keeps telling me, “hold that bump tight”, because it goes by so fast. I try to embrace every moment, or at least the good moments, which is why I made this drawing in the first place. It’s so important, like you point out, and I’m happy that it reminded you of those special moments in your own life. I appreciate you stopping and reading the post, and your comment will be on my mind in the next few weeks to come.🙂

      Liked by 2 people

  3. It is indeed a great talent to be able to create something with colours and express it with a great passion in words at the same time. You are doing it right!

    Liked by 4 people

  4. What a great post! I remember that feeling of another life inside me, only able to respond with kicks and movements. Pregnancy was not my favorite experience, but it was so amazingly surreal to feel another human inside you–totally dependent on you.
    A beautiful post and great description of the last few weeks of pregnancy.

    Liked by 3 people

  5. It’s so heart touching and the way you use to elaborate the expressions of your drawing is Fabulous! I really appreciate you.. 👍.. I’m not a mother but after reading this I can feel these emotions.. Very well done.. best of luck..

    Liked by 2 people

  6. Love your artwork, it radiates with the raw energy and emotions that pregnant women seem to project onto the world.

    My wife is entering the third trimester and we are moving to tokyo to start a new chapter in our lives. Wish you all the best to your new baby and family🙂

    Liked by 3 people

  7. Wow. So much beauty and emotion. It brings a tear to my eye as I remember my daughter curling up to the warmth of my hand while still in my womb. And now, my heart continues to explode in love as her head nestles into my shoulder, her arm curled around my neck. It is so beautiful. Life is beautiful. And your painting captures that in a still image. Breath taking.

    Liked by 3 people

  8. This is amazing. Very beautiful art and touching exploration of pregnancy. It’s such a powerful journey that encourages introspection. A great time for spiritual renewal. I enjoy being pregnant, not all aspects of course!, but the gift of growing a new life form is something that makes me want to climb to the top of a mountain and shout for joy. The birthing process was very empowering for me as well. All the best with your journey. Thanks for sharing. xx

    Liked by 2 people

  9. This is so amazing. I remember feeling the same way when I was pregnant .I loved the movements, no matter if it woke me up at night. I also did LOVE being pregnant. I always have prego fever. LOL. Now, I have a beautiful toddler who drives me insane sometimes but I can’t imagine my life without her. She has brought so much life to me and my entire family. Nothing beats being able to give the gift of life. Your picture speaks literally a thousand words. Thanks for sharing. I do have some toddler/mom articles. Check them out if interested! messybunlifestyle.com

    Liked by 2 people

  10. Those surreal days when you feel another life inside of you, you experience bliss and it’s a little weird for the first time …
    Then you hold that petit being in your arms, have ineffable joy in life!
    Motherhood does not come to all. Those who have it are blessed.
    Beautiful!

    Liked by 2 people

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s